Sunday, August 20, 2006
well since i'm mugging in the middle of the night and decided to take a break, yupz will do the dumb test from mingjue.... argh!!! haha
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.
5. Bold the questions and answers that swack. o.O???
aint gonna sent this out... too lazy wahaha...
mmm will be using my mp3 instead... haha a larger pool of songs huh...
will be cheating la cos some songs(little) dont have their names... haha
How are you feeling today?
=ROCK WITH YOU~ Ashanti =
... mm yupz i'm rocking today with nothing else but homework, relatives playing mahjong and food - pizza and satay- from chomp chomp... haha indeed a rocking day... mm ok maybe i had a 'new' headphone that has a pretty good bass(>.<) will tell you more... -_-'''
Will you get far in life?
*今天你要嫁给我~ Jolin 和陶喆*
haha well of cos i'm gonna get married someday... haha mm... hey my life will go further than just getting married... wanna have kids and a fruitful retirement followed by commiting sucide by standing on a grassplain with a metal stick on top of my head and wait for lightning to strike... wahaha i'm saying the truth okay... thats my dream way of dying when i'm old enough...
oh ya *ps haha thank god its not 明天我要嫁给你... i'll commit sucide now...
How do your friends see you?
+EASY COME EASY GO~ 5566+
mm tink this is the first song that made sense... haha yupz i'm easy going and easily called to come here and there... haha which measy easy 被欺负*hint hint* guess ya i'm seen as a friendly friend ba... = )
Will you get married? -_-'"
do you know how read?? nevermind i'll play along
??麻吉~ MACHI??
o.O??? -_-''' >.< $#~%+=*!!!
okok people i'll get married to machi, satisfied??
What is your best friend's theme song?
`ITS MY LIFE (ACCOUSTIC VERSION)- Bon Jovi`
mm i guess this is for all my friends in particular... mm this is a rock song's accoustic... sorta represent that all of you have lives of ups and downs, work hard play hard, hard on the outside soft on the inside or vice versa, or simply we're a bunch of people with different personalities and interests that simply fit well together... you guys take charge of your own lives and plans your futures... sometimes we might get lost in our individual lives but we know that we can help each other find back our own roads... this is to my friends treasure your lives because i treasure yours... regardless of what, live on, and trust me we'll be happy sharing things about our lives when we get together when we're pretty pretty old... haha...
What is the story of your life?
{NUMB~LINKIN PARK}
yes i'm kinda numb of everything thats around me as you guys have read in my previous posts... haha well numbed of alot of things... the song also show that yes i'm tired of all the pressure thats on me and yet i'm just tired but not excelling... not pushed... and i wonder why...
What was high school like?
kiss night~潘伟柏
shant ellaborate
How can you get ahead in life?
TRICKY TRICKY(HARD CLUB MIX)~Rumble! Feat. Dick Rules
haha the title says it all man... its gonna be tricky to get ahead in life... haha everything must really have to plan ahead... mm haha really everything... no heck care attitude man!!!
What is the best thing about your friends?
^Popcorn (Vereanos Club Mix)~ Verano^
haha perfect song la... haha they're small(look young, not cao lao la), nutty, and they come in sweet or salted... haha and lastly a must-have for movies...
What is in store for this weekend?
& EASY TO BE HARD~ BoA &
mm totally true... mm its so easy to turn something simple (such as clearing a maths paper) into a difficult chore ( cant concentrate) haha yup hope/pray its only this weekend only... and some more hope today's more friutful and this statement doesnt quite come true!!! >.<
What song describes you?
#Fire Coming Out Of The Monkey's Head~Gorillaz feat. Dennis Hopper #
haha what a coincidence, haha i play with fire!! haha kk my og6 people call me a monkey... but hey that makes it fire coming out of monkey's hands... haha mm in this song Monkey is a spirit of the mountain and it burns in wrath as selfish miners destroyed his mountain... love gorillaz.. their songs has a certain feel to it... i cant explain you gotta listen to it urself... haha a bit saddistic a bit nostalgic... haha maybe i'll put up this song... let you guys listen... either this or All Alone...
haha pf and mj's waiting for my posts... haha wonder how long more... argh.. no wonder mj's post around here also become shorter le...
To describe your grandparents?
_WUHA~潘伟柏_
haha omg... how to write this?? haha yupz they rocks and they dote me... haha but they're too old to be wuha~ing... haha
How is your life going?
\炫耀美丽~ Sammi /
yupz...beauitfied with friends by friends... vibrancy made by the fun stuffs in school(library incident) haha and hopefully more coming in spite of the coming A's
What song will they play at your funeral?
.NEVER GONNA LEAVE YOUR SIDE~ Daniel Bedingfield.
a beautiful song... haha mm yupz will surely be one of the songs to be played... haha to tell my loved ones that i'll never leave them and i'll never truely leave this world... haha
How does the world see you?
'SILENCE IS EASY~Starsailor,
haha mm o.O maybe its time i keep my mouth shut... haha sometimes i really felt that i talked tooo much and it has indeed once or twice (or more than that) put me into trouble *zipped* haha thinks its also an irony for me cos its hard for be to stay silent...
Will you have a happy life?
$YOU CANT DO IT~MACHI$
mm... that sounds bleak doesnt it... well let it be a reverse psychology... spite me to do better huh... haha by the way in this song the machis' are discribing how well they are and how accomplished they are and saying that the others cant do what they did... mm haha machi!!!
pf knocked out!!! one down one to go...
What do your friends really think of you?
% FEEL GOOD INC.~ Gorilaz %
haha mm do they feel good about me?? haha mm they wont say the truth of cos... haha we'll see we'll see...
Do people secretly lust after you?
>BE MY VALENTINE~ Don & Drew<
haha omg so qiao... haha mm i doubt anyone would think like that... nay, with my looks?? noooo...
haha maybe its me who secretly lust for others... wahaha would you be my valentine??
How can I make myself happy?
"NOVEMBER HAS COME~ Gorillaz"
mm yupz for every year that's when i'm most happy... no school!!! haha this year is: OH MY GOD NOVEMBER HAS COME LIAO EH!!!!!! haha see how drastic A's can affect someone...
mj knocked out!!! and the winner is jie yan!!! haha
What should you do with your life?
INSANE (CLUB MIX)~ Pulsedriver
nono... trust me i wont... haha unless suddenly something happened... haha like bankrupcy... but even then i wont what... haha i know le!!! cos i'm going to be a teacher(probably) haha then the kids will drive me nuts
Will you ever have children?
@TOO SHY(VASCO & MILLBOY EXTENDED MIX)~Marcinak@
haha i laughed for about a minute or so before typing la... haha mm well for my future and my bloodline guess i wont be too shy la... haha but must get married first la... haha *blush blush*
yes finally done!!!
haha cant believe i took so long... haha
mm well nothnig much happened since i last posted besides the fact that i've been doing maths the past few days and that shit headphone which i bought and i'm still angry about it... a dumb headphone that has a nice packaging den buy le open le den see that shit is bloody ugly in storage la... as in its a small container that cannot fit the whole wire in... dumb rite?? and some more the the person incharge of the headphones doesnt even know how to ekeep the headphone into the container la... absurd... then cannot change cos i opened the package to get it out to see if i'm satisfied for the product... fcuk... haiz blame it on my luck and i tot i could simply get a similiar headphone and go... nevermind then...
yes i've made up my mind... haha fter i tink a month of enjoying after A's i'm gonna find 2 jobs and try to earn 2k per month under NS... haha... i wanna earn alot of money!!!
haha kk late le
gonna sleep liao...
nitez people...
gd morning people... haha tooked 2hrs to do dis neh... haha... now its lyk 3am++haha...
the song now is petrified~ fort minor...
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
5. Bold the questions and answers that swack. o.O???
aint gonna sent this out... too lazy wahaha...
mmm will be using my mp3 instead... haha a larger pool of songs huh...
will be cheating la cos some songs(little) dont have their names... haha
How are you feeling today?
=ROCK WITH YOU~ Ashanti =
... mm yupz i'm rocking today with nothing else but homework, relatives playing mahjong and food - pizza and satay- from chomp chomp... haha indeed a rocking day... mm ok maybe i had a 'new' headphone that has a pretty good bass(>.<) will tell you more... -_-'''
Will you get far in life?
*今天你要嫁给我~ Jolin 和陶喆*
haha well of cos i'm gonna get married someday... haha mm... hey my life will go further than just getting married... wanna have kids and a fruitful retirement followed by commiting sucide by standing on a grassplain with a metal stick on top of my head and wait for lightning to strike... wahaha i'm saying the truth okay... thats my dream way of dying when i'm old enough...
oh ya *ps haha thank god its not 明天我要嫁给你... i'll commit sucide now...
How do your friends see you?
+EASY COME EASY GO~ 5566+
mm tink this is the first song that made sense... haha yupz i'm easy going and easily called to come here and there... haha which measy easy 被欺负*hint hint* guess ya i'm seen as a friendly friend ba... = )
Will you get married? -_-'"
do you know how read?? nevermind i'll play along
??麻吉~ MACHI??
o.O??? -_-''' >.< $#~%+=*!!!
okok people i'll get married to machi, satisfied??
What is your best friend's theme song?
`ITS MY LIFE (ACCOUSTIC VERSION)- Bon Jovi`
mm i guess this is for all my friends in particular... mm this is a rock song's accoustic... sorta represent that all of you have lives of ups and downs, work hard play hard, hard on the outside soft on the inside or vice versa, or simply we're a bunch of people with different personalities and interests that simply fit well together... you guys take charge of your own lives and plans your futures... sometimes we might get lost in our individual lives but we know that we can help each other find back our own roads... this is to my friends treasure your lives because i treasure yours... regardless of what, live on, and trust me we'll be happy sharing things about our lives when we get together when we're pretty pretty old... haha...
What is the story of your life?
{NUMB~LINKIN PARK}
yes i'm kinda numb of everything thats around me as you guys have read in my previous posts... haha well numbed of alot of things... the song also show that yes i'm tired of all the pressure thats on me and yet i'm just tired but not excelling... not pushed... and i wonder why...
What was high school like?
kiss night~潘伟柏
shant ellaborate
How can you get ahead in life?
TRICKY TRICKY(HARD CLUB MIX)~Rumble! Feat. Dick Rules
haha the title says it all man... its gonna be tricky to get ahead in life... haha everything must really have to plan ahead... mm haha really everything... no heck care attitude man!!!
What is the best thing about your friends?
^Popcorn (Vereanos Club Mix)~ Verano^
haha perfect song la... haha they're small(look young, not cao lao la), nutty, and they come in sweet or salted... haha and lastly a must-have for movies...
What is in store for this weekend?
& EASY TO BE HARD~ BoA &
mm totally true... mm its so easy to turn something simple (such as clearing a maths paper) into a difficult chore ( cant concentrate) haha yup hope/pray its only this weekend only... and some more hope today's more friutful and this statement doesnt quite come true!!! >.<
What song describes you?
#Fire Coming Out Of The Monkey's Head~Gorillaz feat. Dennis Hopper #
haha what a coincidence, haha i play with fire!! haha kk my og6 people call me a monkey... but hey that makes it fire coming out of monkey's hands... haha mm in this song Monkey is a spirit of the mountain and it burns in wrath as selfish miners destroyed his mountain... love gorillaz.. their songs has a certain feel to it... i cant explain you gotta listen to it urself... haha a bit saddistic a bit nostalgic... haha maybe i'll put up this song... let you guys listen... either this or All Alone...
haha pf and mj's waiting for my posts... haha wonder how long more... argh.. no wonder mj's post around here also become shorter le...
To describe your grandparents?
_WUHA~潘伟柏_
haha omg... how to write this?? haha yupz they rocks and they dote me... haha but they're too old to be wuha~ing... haha
How is your life going?
\炫耀美丽~ Sammi /
yupz...beauitfied with friends by friends... vibrancy made by the fun stuffs in school(library incident) haha and hopefully more coming in spite of the coming A's
What song will they play at your funeral?
.NEVER GONNA LEAVE YOUR SIDE~ Daniel Bedingfield.
a beautiful song... haha mm yupz will surely be one of the songs to be played... haha to tell my loved ones that i'll never leave them and i'll never truely leave this world... haha
How does the world see you?
'SILENCE IS EASY~Starsailor,
haha mm o.O maybe its time i keep my mouth shut... haha sometimes i really felt that i talked tooo much and it has indeed once or twice (or more than that) put me into trouble *zipped* haha thinks its also an irony for me cos its hard for be to stay silent...
Will you have a happy life?
$YOU CANT DO IT~MACHI$
mm... that sounds bleak doesnt it... well let it be a reverse psychology... spite me to do better huh... haha by the way in this song the machis' are discribing how well they are and how accomplished they are and saying that the others cant do what they did... mm haha machi!!!
pf knocked out!!! one down one to go...
What do your friends really think of you?
% FEEL GOOD INC.~ Gorilaz %
haha mm do they feel good about me?? haha mm they wont say the truth of cos... haha we'll see we'll see...
Do people secretly lust after you?
>BE MY VALENTINE~ Don & Drew<
haha omg so qiao... haha mm i doubt anyone would think like that... nay, with my looks?? noooo...
haha maybe its me who secretly lust for others... wahaha would you be my valentine??
How can I make myself happy?
"NOVEMBER HAS COME~ Gorillaz"
mm yupz for every year that's when i'm most happy... no school!!! haha this year is: OH MY GOD NOVEMBER HAS COME LIAO EH!!!!!! haha see how drastic A's can affect someone...
mj knocked out!!! and the winner is jie yan!!! haha
What should you do with your life?
INSANE (CLUB MIX)~ Pulsedriver
nono... trust me i wont... haha unless suddenly something happened... haha like bankrupcy... but even then i wont what... haha i know le!!! cos i'm going to be a teacher(probably) haha then the kids will drive me nuts
Will you ever have children?
@TOO SHY(VASCO & MILLBOY EXTENDED MIX)~Marcinak@
haha i laughed for about a minute or so before typing la... haha mm well for my future and my bloodline guess i wont be too shy la... haha but must get married first la... haha *blush blush*
yes finally done!!!
haha cant believe i took so long... haha
mm well nothnig much happened since i last posted besides the fact that i've been doing maths the past few days and that shit headphone which i bought and i'm still angry about it... a dumb headphone that has a nice packaging den buy le open le den see that shit is bloody ugly in storage la... as in its a small container that cannot fit the whole wire in... dumb rite?? and some more the the person incharge of the headphones doesnt even know how to ekeep the headphone into the container la... absurd... then cannot change cos i opened the package to get it out to see if i'm satisfied for the product... fcuk... haiz blame it on my luck and i tot i could simply get a similiar headphone and go... nevermind then...
yes i've made up my mind... haha fter i tink a month of enjoying after A's i'm gonna find 2 jobs and try to earn 2k per month under NS... haha... i wanna earn alot of money!!!
haha kk late le
gonna sleep liao...
nitez people...
gd morning people... haha tooked 2hrs to do dis neh... haha... now its lyk 3am++haha...
the song now is petrified~ fort minor...
-rain keeps poring-
3:55 am
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
mm went for justin's birthday on 8th august... haha first i arrived late with peifen cos we met on the mrt den went to bei's shop... haha saw tian and the rest-wee beng, connie, xi ying and justin holding onto his water dispenser from us- gift1... then went to play pool for a while... mm cant beat that birthday boy's luck man... he's damn lucky that day la* note this i'll come back haha... mm then the rest came- ming jue, hu nan... down to new york new york for our dinner... mm had to wait for the 2 tai tais so we had a choc fondue... nice!! haha besides that i dont really like the food... haha maybe i tried the wrong stuff- meatball spaghetti... mm after that when the two- xin yu and yiwen- came, gave justin his cutie pink water bottle(gift 2nd) and his CK's eternity men(3rd gift), we eat finish then went down to the crowded esplanade and met xuan sheng for the fireworks... at first we're not so lucky to get a good place but then wee beng, justin and xuan sheng went racky around and found a near to perfect spot for us *told you he's lucky... haha the fireworks was right in front of us and we had no obstructions in our view... and it was beautiful... enjoyed every moment especially the ones that were as though the sparks are gonna pour onto you... want to be a pyrotechnic, whatever its called... sorta puts me playing with fire to a higher level... haha highest i guess... a dream.. dunno if its possible... and i dunno how to start to move for this dream too... haha sort of impossible... haha wonder wonder again...
after that bei join us after work and we went searching for a place to settle down... by then xin yu yiwen hu nan ming jue and wee beng had left and left the few of us... had some drinks, yes liquor... mm some time since i last drank... as in its like before i'm 18 i've got this urge to buy and drink alot, but after i'm 18 it doesnt interest me that much... mm actually it still interest me alot its just that i dont have the temptation to drink... haha rarely now i should say... but i really wanna have a bottle of peach vodka... smells so nice!! haha... mm we end the day by playing truth or dare... mm some stupid stuff happened as usual... circle of trust circle of trust!!
mm went home with pf by nightrider6... she's quite moody after that.. haha she say that i seem to have seen all her different emotions in that week... haha whats the problem with sharing your emotions?? i'll be damn 不舒服 if i always see the happy smiling and cheerful pf... cos that means something's wrong with you and you dont wanna share... very 不健康...
friday went to watch tokyo drift... haiz kena tempted lor... haha mm but its a nice movie- for the fancy cars and the drifting and driving- with a bad plot haha... mm ever seen bikes with nitro canisters?? haha you'd get a glimpse of it... haha yes sooner or later i'm gonna get the soundtrack, haha not bad got alot of cool songs... really 酷...
sun and sat was really slacking days for me... keep falling asleep...
haha monday is such a nice day to start the week... man smooth day... happy happy... just happy cos of a normal and nice day... hard to explain... seems no particular reason... haha even getting punished for talking in the library is funny... haha... mm
ok what punishment you think you guys deserve? mm cannot go library. ya correct blah blah blah scold scold scold so you guys will be barred from the library from 1 week. no problem. dont say no problem! i just want you guys to repent on what you've done
ok you guys can go now. go in and take your bags and leave. thanx. no need say thanx!
mm insider joke... haha bye auntie shirley... see you in a weeks time...
mm taught xin yu maths for calculus... haha dont worry so much xin yu!!! haha be patient... careless only... not that you dunno concept...haha but pretty funny careless... no offense ar... mm especially when i say you on the things you do wrong or careless.. no harm intended if any recieved... haha sometimes i abit blunt so sorry sorry...
went home then something very funny happened... cos i very hot and tired liao cos waited at the interchange very long then perspiring all over le then go up the bus no air con de so i sat at those chairs thats facing each other and i just place my legs over the other side- not on the chair la-and slept... haha woke up the 1st time i saw an auntie sitting opposite me so move abit, scared later my leg hit her... then fall back asleep then woke up cos someone sat beside me... dress like typical gals going jalan jalan so dress not bad la then looks i dunno... haha but just told myself to sleep more to the left nearer to the window in case mm ' accident' happens... mm but wen i woke up the last time i was about to land onto her la!!! i tio shock then quickly moved back into my position and cling on the to the windo bars... haha then realise i missed my busstop... haha so funny la!
today was the complete opposite... haha its those days you know its gonna be bad the moment you wake up... haha wake up hear mother nag... got toothpaste all over my hand then bang onto the toilet door, anyhow style my hair... haha just fed up... worse i took 80 to my old house there then waited very very long that i went to school at ard 7+... not late la... but wah really no mood for the maths test liao... haha... the rest of the day wasnt that bad... but a bad morning = bad day...
mm haha long entry ba... tian ask me y nv update... mm she seems troubled again... shir shir also... shir shir dont so troubled can?? haha pw going finish liao... 忍a few more months and its over!! jia you jia you!!! and good luck for piano exma!!! you can de as long as you dont overstress yourself... haha me tired liao almost 1am le... hope its a better morning tommorrow.. cos i need all the luck in the world for 1 gp consultation... haha cya guys...
-rain keeps poring-
12:00 am
Sunday, August 06, 2006
anyway kinda hoping for next week to come faster... mm hope to focus more next week...
must be thinking why my blog so 'bleach' (the anime) de... well is it really that hard to guess?? mm yupz something to do with my brother again... must be tired of reading all those le right?? mm for those who're irritated about me talking about my bro or felt that i'm attracting attention, then you can jolly well close this webpage cos i dont give a damn...
mm cos its my brother who introduce me to bleach... i think garry was even earlier to mention about bleach but i wasnt interested... it was when my bro downloaded the 1st 2 episodes of bleach when i got hooked... i doubt he liked it very much cos i watch much much further then him... he's much interested in other animes i guess... bleach means something to me for him... i'm not really a hardcore fan of bleach...this song's also from bleach... this song meant something to me cos it brings about a certain pain or loss... it just has the feeling of pain thats from deep inside you... a pain of loss or the fear of losing... den when it reaches the end it's much lighter... maybe to show that there's always warmth even though you're low...
i'm wondering why am i blogging so much about my bro recently... maybe this is the hungry ghost festical... maybe the longer you lose someone the more you miss him... there is never a day i've stopped thinking about him... its just naturally there... for my friends: i know its like sometimes i'll say aomething about my bro when we're having fun or juz chilling out... please let me say... mm its the only way for me to feel that he's beside me, with me and not gone yet... its tough... i juz wanna say stuff about him... its like if there's anything that we're talking about that make me remember things in the past about him just let me say it out... because only then i can piece out all the memories i had with him... many thanx...
-rain keeps poring-
10:37 pm
Saturday, August 05, 2006
HATE -revised
who says it's easier to love than to hate...
when you love...
you wonder whether he/she loves u not?
you wonder if he/she minds you loving him/her?
you wonder if you mind loving him/her?
you wonder if what you're doing is correct?
you wonder if did anything wrong
you wonder if you should do anything
you wonder if did you do too much?
you wonder if its alright you did nothing
you wonder what you're gonna do next
you wonder what he/she'll do/react
you wonder what you're gonna do next
you wonder what he/she'll do/react
you wonder if he/she is irritated by what you're doing
you wonder is there anyone else loving him/her?
you wonder are you in love with somebody else?
you wonder are you in love with somebody else too??
you wonder whether your love justified?
you wonder are you in love with somebody else too??
you wonder whether your love justified?
you wonder what type of love you're showering on him/her?
you wonder what type of love he/she's giving you
you wonder if you really love him/her?
you wonder if he/she really love you?
you wonder if you really love him/her?
you wonder if he/she really love you?
you wonder if he/she will ever fall for you
you wonder if your love will last
you wonder when will your love end
you wonder if your love for a friend was more than that actually
you wonder if your love for a guy/gal was simply friendship
you wonder if you can ever treat him/her as just a friend
you wonder if he/she'll ever treat you as just a friend
you wonder if true love really exist
you wonder if true friendship really exist
you wonder when will your love end
you wonder if your love for a friend was more than that actually
you wonder if your love for a guy/gal was simply friendship
you wonder if you can ever treat him/her as just a friend
you wonder if he/she'll ever treat you as just a friend
you wonder if true love really exist
you wonder if true friendship really exist
you wonder so much
you wonder too much
and you wont stop wondering...
but
when you hate...
you stop wondering,
sometimes you dont even remember why
you just hate...
hard??
i doubt so...
HATE:
Having
Acceptance
Towards
Everyone
irony isnt it?
-rain keeps poring-
1:28 am
haha the past week i think since tues ba, been drinking yang ming jiu... haha quite useful for the 1st 2days but at thurs night mom poured too little then, yesterday night i sleept too late... help me to keep awake in class sia... wun even sleep in boring lecture... will still be tired for the day but wun fall asleep... dunno y... so good lor since i wanna pay more attention le... worked for the tues phy practical lessons...
haha so qiao... wanted to type something related to my brother, then volume up the radio and its 'where'd you go' - Fort Minor
mm the old jieyan's gone... dead when my brother passed away and brought it along when he left... it seems that i'll never be my old self again-like what raymond (my LTC facil) says... the old me doesnt care about my future... the old me thinks about death as a solution... the old me thinks that my brother will succeed me in everythink so i dont have to care about all the things at home... the old me sees myself as the burden to my family... the old me sees things differently, he's a selfish asshole... the new me was brought out under the extreme circumstance... brought out through a horrible experience... forced to be by pressure from everyone and myself...
i've got a burden now... very huge one... so much pressure from everyone... now that i'm the only son... it seems that all hopes are on me... so many to think about that i've never think before... so many things about my future... so many things i need 2 do... need to accomplish... need to fulfil so many stuff.... i'm not complaining... maybe the old me will but not who i am now... maybe i'm numbed... too numb... i noe i need to change... so ya i need to do that...
well used to think that i could depend everything on my brother... always expecting him to be scoring much better than me... expecting him to be there if anything happens to the computer... expecting that if i could just die there is still him in the house... expecting that even if i dun get married he carry still carry on the family line... expecting that i will always be the bad boy of the house and he'd be the good one...
ya had a chat with raymond after his interrogation session... mm had a long chat on life... haha and to convince me to be more confident... dunno if i'm go try out the LTC facil... mm interested but mm dunno if i hav the time to spare... september's got a day of training... just scared later my momentum break then die...
mm holiday week coming... got jus's birthday coming... mm gotta study for thermodynamics for chem test after the holiday... study!!! haha...
in life you just lived life for granted and when sometihing tragic happeneds to you that make you realise that you have a group of people that you have to care and love and take care of, you'll be more responsible... because you'll have a responsibility to do so... you'll understand more about life... and when it really does, u'll change for the better...
-rain keeps poring-
12:45 am